week 1 monday

First day of class left me very intrigued with the subject.  There’s something about existentialism that just seems so mysterious and far off. It comes off as a very foreign concept, yet it seems so familiar at the same time. If that makes any sense. Anyway, I am really looking forward to this class. I like the idea of students being the teachers.  It excites me and makes me feel like this is going to be a semester. It makes me feel like I'm going to be important, and not just a student who is there to receive a grade and move on.  This is my first philosophy class so I’m a bit nervous but I think I’m up to the challenge.  Although I am also a little worried about what I might find out about myself.  Right now I feel like I don't have a super clear idea of who I really am, or if there is even any purpose to my existence.   Maybe by the end of the class I'll know, or at least think I know.  Maybe I’ll just end up with even more doubt about who I am and if there is a reason for my existence.  Maybe I’ll never know.  Maybe that’s what existentialism is really about.  Trying to make sense of things that are truly impossible to make sense of.  Seems kind of crazy yet it makes some sense.  And maybe it tries to answer the question of why we exist, the never ending debate between essence and existence.  Maybe we don’t have a reason to exist, we just do.   Hell for all I know this could just be my imagination, maybe I don’t exist at all.  But then again, who cares. I’ll just keep on existing whether there’s a reason to or not.